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A letter to the school management

2011-07-14T12:44:00.000+08:00

Dear Mr Yeo
I am a student of Republic polytechnic and I am writing in to represent some of the opinions of the students in regard to the decision made on banning all social networks in the school.

We understand that this decision had been made for the benefit of all students so as to minimise the distraction and the chances of misusing the internet during school hours.

This issue had been the most common subject within students every now and then. We feel that it is unnecessary for this decision to be made as the inconvenient cause may be drastic for us.

The ban of msn would be the most inconvenient issue for the students because we used this as a form of communication to transfer information when doing group work as it is the fastest way to communicate. Although leo system enables us to upload and share information, it is way too slow as compared to msn. Time is precious; we have to work fast during our meetings. If we depend on leo in our daily work, work would most probably be submitted later than usual.What if leo crash? It is not an uncommon thing that the leo system is down some times. In this case, the access of internet and msn would be the next solution to this as we will still be able to resume work.

The ban of internet such as Facebook also limits us to the resources given; in addition that some modules require us to create media messages in different problem. With the lack of limitations, there will be a drop in quality of work leading to a drop of grades for the students. We feel that to be tied down to the limitations, it will definitely hinder our thinking process and communication.

We have come out with a solution that would be pleasing to both parties. Allowing the students to access to the social networking platform only during breaks and free time (after school),
This system would allow us to use the internet efficiently as we would be able to know what are the information we need to obtain before doing the ppt. This will limit chances that students will misuse and get distracted using the internet.

We hope that you would be able to consider our solution and modify the decision made for a win-win situation as well as to avoid any dissatisfaction and unhappiness aroused by the students.

Yours sincerely

Mojo Chan

2010-09-26T16:04:00.004+08:00

alot of things have been going on recently.
but whatever.
concentrating hard on O levels.
i dont care whats gonna happen around me.
i dont care if you're gonna ruin my life cos i dont bother taking revenge.
i got alot of better things to do.

anyways,
daddy got me my DSLR camera on friday.^^
i likeeee.
expensive, but i dont care.
dad's gonna pay half of the installment monthly and im paying the other half.
okay lah tu.
yesterday went out with friends AGAIN :D
reached home at 9pm?
bf sent me home in a cab. yay.
had alot of fun yeserday with all the crazy people.

wanna study now,
so BYE.

SIGHHHHHHHH

2010-08-23T15:23:00.003+08:00

hais hais hais.
i dont like my prelim results.
i studied like mad, and thats what i get.
haissssss.
whatever laaah.
now left to focus on O levels.
aft that i'll be done.
whatever results i get then will just be as it is.
no more time to waste.

so why am i blogging right now?
oh well, im done posting anw.
byeeeeee.

2010-08-15T20:35:00.002+08:00

its those littlest things that you do and the things that you say make me treasure you even more each day.
and yes, today's post will just be about my r/s.
so if you dont like to know, dont bother reading. bye.

well, since its fasting month,
i dont meet boyf to go school with him in the morning.
but he would send me home after school if i wanted him to.
its just so nice having him around.
though we dont talk till very late at night like we used to,
i love everytime he calls. :D
he is sure to make me laugh in EVERY call.
hmm.
we do have arguments. which couple doesnt? -.-
but its not really big ones. just small small ones.
its been nine months, and thats really fast.
i cant wait till O levels are done.
we've got SO MANY plans.
:D
aaaaw, now i miss him alr.
HAHA.

2010-08-08T16:03:00.002+08:00

studying often nowadays.
fasting month is coming up very soon.
gonna spend time with bby tmw and tues bfore avoiding each other for the next one month.
hais.

i dont know if what im doing is right or wrong.
but i hope he'll make a good decision in the end.
please,please take my advice.
hais.
sometimes, some things feel weird.
and i dont blame anyone for that.
i understand what your going through.
but i hope when that something you never expected happens, you will know how to not do what you did the last time.
im just trying to help.
and i hope it works out.
i dont want anymore weirdness around us yknw.
hmmm.

well, might be heading to msia tonight.
i dont know what time i'll be back.
its been a very tiring week ):

2010-07-30T22:44:00.002+08:00

long time no update.
been busy with school and everything.
today i cracked my brain doing maths from 1pm till 9pm. -.-
with breaks with in between of course.

i hate everything happening around this house now.
it purely sucks.
-.-
i dont care if something is bound to happen.
i only care about my O levels.
i wanna get out of this house as mush as i can.
cause im really sick and tired of being here.

2010-07-18T16:55:00.002+08:00

i love how everything is going now.
i really feel the change.
i just hope it'll get better by the day.
yes, i will help him along the way.
cause i know both of us are trying to make things right between us.
it might not be the same like it was before.
but at least we've made a very good decision and are willing to accept the change.

HAPPY 8TH MONTH, love. :D

2010-07-11T20:47:00.003+08:00

hello! :D
today was fun. yesterday was fun too.
yesterday had malay wrtiing competition at woodlands lib.
the topic was hard but i managed to finish.
then headed home, changed and met mum at orchard.
walk2, shop2, eat2 and headed back to westmall to meet nad.
watched DESPICABLE ME. so cute ! :D
show ended. walk2 and shop2 again.
headed home.
end of the day.

today, went to send brother to tuition.
headed to parkway for breakfast.
walk2. dad bought something.
fetched bro.
headed to airport to meet mum.
walk2, shop2. bought something for bby.
mummy came, bought waffle.
out of airport, headed to causeway point.
reached woodlands, nafiah went to her friend's house.
me,mum,dad and other two siblings went to burger king,eat.
then went shopping.
bought some things.
walk2. shp2.
nafiah came. headed home.

now at home, doing homework.
i dunno how to do maths.
):
haisss.

Disaster

2010-07-09T21:35:00.002+08:00

you know how fcuking irritating some people are?
this fucking guy says im not pretty but at least IM NOT A TWO FACED BITCH LIKE HIS EX GIRLFRIEND.
wtf kay?
spam other people's blog using other people's name.
and then, UP TILL NOW, this person doesnt wanna admit.
im waiting you know.
ALOT of us are waiting for an explanation.
you did it to me JUST BECAUSE YOU THOUGHT I WAS FALLING FOR YOUR BOYFRIEND at that point of time?
please lahhh.
he looks MORE WORSE than a toilet bowl.
ANY GIRL WHO ACCEPTS HIM AS A BOYFRIEND AND CRIES OVER HIM, AND ACCEPT HIM BACK EVEN WHEN HE PLAYED TIMER WITH HER - TWICE, IS FCUKING DUMB.
i've got my own likings of guys and apparently, HE DOESNT MAKE MY LIST.
asshole.
i still want to know why you did it AND WHY YOU MAKE MY FRIEND DO IT.
at least MY FRIEND BOTHERED TO TELL ME AND APOLOGISED TO ME UNTIL SHE ACTUALLY WANTED TO CRY being afraid that i wont forgive her.
but i did cos i know she did mean it.
BUT YOU, YOU KNOW I'LL NEVER FORGIVE YOU.
NEVER!
and goodluck in your life cos it wont be nice after this.

2010-07-07T19:22:00.002+08:00

oh well,
since school started, i guess everything has been fine.
i just feel so pressurised and stressed out now.
this weekend, im packed with things.
no time to study, tht sucks.
mock exams has alr started.
yest geog mock test was a sucker. didnt study.
today physics was another sucker, didnt study and fell asleep during the paper.

hmm, i guess today was my bad day.
was happy some parts of the day, but the rest of it was fcuked up.
=.=
so anw, i had to be in this malay writing competition and sajak competition.
buang mase aku. tkde time nak blaja =.=
im frus. im stressed. im depressed. HAHA.

2010-06-27T21:17:00.003+08:00

well, today is the bestbest day ever! :D
went out to east coast with daddy, nafiah, irfan, icha, nadhirah & kelvin & boyfriend too! :D
had alot of fun, really.
but its really sweet of bby to be able to make it today so early in the morning although he slept at 3plus yesterday.
im so happy.
spent alot of time with bby.
daddy says we're going bowling the next time he has an off day!
YAY US !
:D
cant wait. looking forward.
but for now,
SCHOOL STARTS TOMORROW, & I DUN WANNA GO TO SCHOOL.

2010-06-26T12:41:00.003+08:00

i still havent finish with homeworks.
hari2 asik2 busy laaah.
):
well, tmrw daddy wants to go out.
boyfriend tagging along.
yay!

so, um.
everything has become from bad to worse, i can say.
i dont know how to handle it.
but i'll try.
school reopens, and its study study study study.
i dont wanna care about anything else anymore.
just STUDY.
can ? good.

okay, i wanna try and do my homework.
whatever i can finish today, i will finish.
if i dont finish, i dont care.
;P

2010-06-16T18:56:00.002+08:00

heyhey .
its the second last week of school hols and i havent finish my homeworks.
still got maths, ss and malay to do. -.-
i hate this.
i'd rather go to school.
im slacking too much at home and it sucks.
hais.
tmw still have to go back to school for english.

its been almost a week since i last met boyfriend.
but its okay.
i dunwnna be meeting him everyday, like we've got nothing better to do.
hmm.
our rship has been smooth sailing since it started ;D
there just seem to be nothing for both of us to fight about.
i do get mad at him but i'll let it go.
he says there's no point of him being angry whn im angry.
doesnt solve anything.
really happy to have him around :D

grandparents came back last saturday from Mecca.
those things they told me makes me wanna go there.
and i will be going the next time they go with aunties and cousin.
but thats next year.
hopefully in march.
i just wanna be stress-free for once.
being here is just so fcuked up.

well, there's nothing much to talk about anymore.
im waiting for boyfriend to call. WAITING. (from more than 2 hours ago) :D
but its okay. i'll wait till i get pissed.
HAHA.
byeee

all the fake smiles .

2010-06-09T15:29:00.002+08:00

well, havent been updating for quite some time.
been busy with classes and other important things.
gotta plan my time well now.

bye.

2010-05-28T12:02:00.002+08:00

now whats going on ?
yes, im confused.
haiyaa.
up to you okay ?
i got better things to concentrate with.

yeah,
looking at my report book hurts my eyes.
hmmph.
love, you're not the only one who did badly.
i did too.
so pls pls pls pls pls cheer up kaay.

well, i dont know why.
but yest when i talked to bby on the phone,
it seemed like i just knew him =.=
no idea why.
the atmosphere was so dull.
the emotions was so , dont know.
haha.
:D

& to whom it may concern,
sweet talk doesnt work on me.
pfft.
STMFs disgust me, okay ?

What a mess.

2010-05-26T19:35:00.002+08:00

the only reason i cry is cause i care.
the only reason i think is cause i care.
the only reason im the only one taking this seriously is cause i care.
the only reason im trying my best is cause i care.
the only reason i listen is cause i care.
the only reason im still here is cause i care.
and thats what i want all of you to know.
i dont break down for nothing.
i dont listen for nothing.
im not here for nothing.
i dont think for nothing.
i dont take it seriously for nothing.
i dont try my best for nothing.

please dont get me wrong.
i dont do what you think i would do in this situation.
i dont wanna let this be the cause of my failure.
though it has been the reason for the first few months of this year,
i got over it. i know i had to do something.
cause i dont wanna be that way.
but, all i needed this year, right now,
is the support from all of you.

the support that all of you would give me
to let me go through all this.
thats all im asking for.
i break down cause im sad i dont have this anymore.
i know all of you still advise me, care for me, love me.
but its just not the same as before, really.

im sorry for what i did to both of you yesterday.
i shouldnt have interrupted.
and yes, im guilty.
who am i to interfere ?
but im part of it too arent i ?
i have the right to know dont i ?
why hide ?
why wait ?
i know im taking the big Os this year.
but do you really think by not telling me,
it would make me feel any better ?
do you ?

im just glad i already know.
cause at least now, i know what i'll have to face sooner or later.
believe me, i wont let this bring me down.
i may not have what i asked for.
but at least, im grateful all of you still care.
just stop hiding things from me can ?
i deserve to know, so does everybody else involved.
cause whatever your problem is, it will also be ours.

2010-05-19T21:41:00.002+08:00

WOAH.
exam results was devastating, pathetic, freaking me out.
wat the hell ?
thts the best i can do huh ?
=.=
though the results were kinda okay, i dont like it.
only happy for phy. smiling throughout the lesson.
HAH.

told mum ALL my results.
was texting her the whole day in school.
she was glad except for that ONE fail.
haissss.
still, she still gonna treat me to that place ive always wanted to go eat at !
yay me !
Sunday kay people, sunday.
i likkkkeeeee.
:D

i feel kinda lost now.
really really really lost.
feels like ive done something really really really really really really wrong.
H E L P !

2010-05-16T21:29:00.000+08:00

im so tired today.
hais.
going back to school tomorrow.
):

2010-05-13T12:48:00.003+08:00

E X A M is O V E R !
yeeeeeeeeeeeesssssssssss !
kay, not quite yet the time to enjoy anyway.
haishais.
its weird, i dont know why daddy is not at home right now ?
hmmph.
well, core geog paper was simply okok laaah.
when i studied last night, nothing went into my brain.
but then when i opened the paper, BOOM , i know how to do.
HAHAHA.

i am so tireddddd right now.
grandma wants me to help her but i wanna go out with mummy.
):
i wanna rest youknow people !
AAAAAALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
]:

the misery ):

2010-05-12T17:52:00.003+08:00

science ppr sucked big time today.
i can say maths ppr was way more doable.
haishais.
went home today, found M in my room .
she was crying.
and even denied when i asked if she was crying =.=
i tried comforting her, cause i really cant stand seeing her cry.
obviously, something must have happened before i came home.
i gave M a big hug, let her know tht i'll always be there for her.
so went into the kitchen, B told me that there was an A before i got home.
the cause for M crying.
im frustrated with D.

well, i guess its about the SAMEOLD.
haishaishais.
i pity M.
i pity D.
but none of them wants me to pity them.
=.=
im just being concerned, people.
at least i still care.
i wanna find out what the A was about.
i wanna help. i dunwan anything to F A L L A P A R T.
):

hais,goodbye you ):

2010-05-08T15:54:00.002+08:00

well. . . hmph.
i know ive not been posting for quite some time.
im not guilty of it :P
daddy got an IPHONE.
whatever kay daddy =.=
everything at home seemed to have calmed down a little.
things at school are continously stressing me out.

the whole week last week was okok.
planned to go study on saturday and monday with bf.
but end up only on saturday cause i had a last minute thing at home on monday.
=.=
i went to bby's house last saturday and met his mum >.<
there was so many guys around. HAHA.
i think i had fun talking to his mum.
:D

today, im superbored.
have to help grandma at home again. PENAAAAT.
then i wanna study for maths.
tomorrow, i HOPE i have the WHOLE DAY to myself.
really.
i need time for myself.
aku dah terlalu kisah pasal orang lain. :P

have been going for night study since last week.
and will be continue going.
i hate being at home on those two study nights.
:D

what a life,

2010-04-23T21:09:00.002+08:00

hais.
wat the fcking hell.
):

semua tengah slowly fall apart.
aku tknk buat pape lagi.
aku malas nak ckp pape lagi.
PENAT.
org sume bilang aku untuk concentrate on O lvls tapi sume ade complain, complain kat aku. memang aku bole buat ape ? aku bole dengar je kan ? aku dengar, tak ckp pape, she bising kat aku. kalau aku nk ckp nnti tak terime.
APE SHE NAK SEBETOLNYE ?
bingit seyh.
aku ade kakak buatpe ?
ade anak pertama buat pe kalau sume bende mcm gini kau tengok aku ?
SHE nak aku tolong HER mcm mne kalau SHE tknk tolong diri HER sendiri.
no point kaaan.
kalau HE bbl ngn aku, SHE sebok nk tahu.
kau nk srh HE beli brg pn SHE kne blg aku untuk blg HE.
SHE fikir aku ape?
selama ni aku jadi org tengah antara krg due tau .
aku dah penat tau .
aku nak blaja , tkleh concentrate.
kalau aku nk blaja kat luar SHE nnti kate aku tkde rumah.
wat the hell.
settle it between yourselves.
aku dah tknk masuk campur.
aku seriously dah had enough of all this shit.

please lah eh,
kasi aku balik hidup aku bole tk ?

no guarantee

2010-04-17T14:26:00.001+08:00

hiding the pain behind all those psycho-ness.

my life, it aint easy.

2010-04-15T20:30:00.002+08:00

everything hasnt had its solution.
everyone is being so ignorant.
no one's giving in.
everyone's living their own world.
acting like nothing is happening.
well, i just hope they'll wake up to realise that whatever is happening now, its still happening.
hais.

this week has been so busy.
schoolwork, personal problems.
i really cant stop sighing.
its all i can do.
cause right now,
i dont know who to listen to,
i dont know what i should do,
i dont know what i should say,
i dont know who to believe,
i dont know what to do anymore.

why cant one just let go of the past,
make things better ?
why create more problems and ungkit the past ?
why cant one just give in, start anew ?
why cant anybody do anything ?

i cant do this.
i dont have the support from everyone i need support from.
all i have is different people with different views.
i really cant do this.

2010-04-08T15:05:00.000+08:00

I just wish you could just shut up. I hope by deleting tht post, u people can really just shut up. Its so fcuking annoying.

past, dont haunt me, can ?

2010-04-02T23:13:00.004+08:00

i dont like what happened.
hated it. so embarrased , i could cry.
but its stupid though.
haiyaaaaa .

anyways, made cupcakes.
gonna bring some for the malay class tomorrow.
life's been as rough as ever, no doubt.
didnt go school yesterday.
supposed to do homeworks today, didnt find time.
going out tomorrow aft malay class.
so im left with sunday.
hais.

why do they make it sound so easy ?
"dont think too much, you'll get more stressed."
i dont have to think about that to be stressed.
i am already stressed.
see the difference ?
hais.
im trying not to care.
but they are the people i love for goodness sake !
im trying to focus on STUDY,
and im still trying.
its O levels naqiah, wake up can !
hmmmpppppph !

i hate this year.
there's something wrong with this year.
something SO WRONG.
i hate hate hate hate hate this year !

& to those people it may concern.
i dont do things on purpose.
i do things for a cause.
and you'll never understand why i would do what i do.
life's unfair, isnt it ?

SLAP!

2010-03-28T20:35:00.002+08:00

there's this thing going through my mind i cant explain.
its so cruel.
it has made me so restless for the past two days.
WHY ?
haiyyyyaaa.
i dont know whats worse. life ? or everything else that matters ?
no use telling others how i feel .
if i cant understand it, how can they.

2010-03-16T14:03:00.002+08:00

well, reached korea at 0701hours yest.
met MrKim and headed to the resort.
couldnt go skiing.
=.=
so slept at the condo.
right now im alr at the other motel in town.
heading to LOTTE WORLD aft this.
its cold but that doesnt stop us from going round.
i miss so many people.
my phne got no roaming.
saaaaaddd.

2010-03-14T11:45:00.002+08:00

well, heading off to korea tonight .
FPs, dont miss me too much yeah.
i cant promise you guys souvenirs kay .
but i'll try. (:

enjoy your holidays.
i mean it >.<

byebye fellow readers.
i'll be back next sunday to update again alryty.

2010-03-07T18:43:00.002+08:00

well, well, well,
im stuck with DNT homework right now.
haiyaaaa.
havent do ideation.
english still have to do plens.
maths homework not done.
STRESSSSSSSSSSSSS.

did geog and english compre hmewk alr.
then went out.
come home, now doing DNT.
aft ths doing plens.
then have to do maths which i SWEAR i dont understand.
OH WAIT.
still need to do filing.
=.=

yest had netball training.
resistant training caused my hip to hurttt.
all the running in the hot sun got me a fever and both legs hurting.
ball passes made my shoulders hurt.
SEE, im hurting everywhere.
haiayayayai.
aft tht, chged uppp. went to westmall.
meet bby, sisters and bro.
ate at KFC first. walked ard.
bby went off to the gym.

i reached home at ard 430.
slept till 5plus.
bby text, then i sleep back.
bby woke me up at 6.
told me he was gonna play soccer at the street soccer court nearby.
so watched him from kitchen window.
blablablabla.

kay, bye.

2010-03-05T21:12:00.002+08:00

heyya people.
this whole week has been tiring for me.
):
kay, whatever.
school has been okay.
life has been up and down with problems here and there.
i kinda miss bby.
wth =.=
HAIYYYYYYAAAAAAA.
tomorrow malay class is cancelled.
got netball though. -__-"
anywayyyys,
FPgirls ajak go swimming.
but im not going. so i hope you guys enjoy yourselves.
we'll organise an FP guys&girls outing soon aittte.

please, please, please.

2010-02-18T18:07:00.002+08:00

i have been so caught up in my love life.
i have forgotten about alot of things and alot of people.
korang , aku really really really really sorry .
aku tau korang tak suke aku ckp psl aku ngn die very often.
so i guess, whatever happens between me and him will just be antara kita.
sorry korang !

_____________________________________________________________________________
well , school was fcuked up today.
cant concentrate during ALL the lessons today.
was having cramps which affected me very badly.
cg azzizah thought i was falling asleep in her class.
i actually was, but it was only because i was trying to tahan the cramps.
i hate today esp i dont know why.
today really is not a good day.

2010-02-15T20:32:00.002+08:00

aku slack habis nowadays .
CANNOT LIKE THIS !
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !
hate hearing about O levels yknw.
stresssssssssss .

currently doing DNT research .
wanna finish up DNT fast !!!

2010-02-14T17:43:00.002+08:00

first of all , see this girl ^ .
its her birthday today.
so happy birthday babe !
:D
___________________________________________________________________________________
so anyway,
yest went to Victoria Theatre Hall to see teater.
haha.
the teater ended at 9pm .
spent time with bby.
talk talk.
and stuff like that . called grandad.
he fetched me at 10pm.
reached home, eat, otp with bby awhile.
then sleep.

so today might be a day couples enjoy.
blablabla.
well, im super tired today.
only spent today doing homework.
mum wanted me to follow nafiah to her friend's house.
but im LAZY .
bby's down with flu.
he's currently resting and i'll have to wake him up at 6.
kesian bby aku tu tauu.
hahahs.

WHERE ARE YOU ?

2010-02-12T21:12:00.002+08:00

a happy family is everything someone wants.
but not everyone can get that, can they ?
not if everyone in the family is able to give in and cooperate.

well, life's just been like fcukingshit.
i dont know whats wrong with HIM.
attitude here and there.
not communicating with anybody in the house.
not even talking to HER.
does he know how hurt SHE is ?
and how hurt I am ?
treat us like we're strangers.
you dont even seem to care anymore.
WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU ?
i dont have you to look up to when i cry anymore.
i dont have you to look up to when i have doubts anymore.
i dont have you even by my side, supporting and being there for me anymore.
WHERE ARE YOU IN MY LIFE ?
cant you see how hard she tries to hide the pain ?
cant you see how much she is crying inside ?
cant you see how much she has to go through because of you ?
does she have to show ? cos i thought you should know.
_____________________________________________________________________________________

okay, whatever already.
well , it was me and bby's 3rd month yest.
happy yet sad .
aqilah knows why .
so does bby. (:
im glad to have him around. bby can heal that hole in my heart.
and he really really really understands. bby really shows how much he loves someone.
good good.
had ss LSP aft school , grandad fetched me and car-ed to parkway to meet mum.
bought a short dress for saturday nightttt . (:

today had cross country.
ran competetive.
im hopeless i tell you.
start2 , was running lah kann .
then aft running past the first condo , then started walking.
and walked all the way till halfway of the end point. 43rd position :D
CONGRATS TO BBY FOR GETTING 4TH PLACE.
budak tu happpppyyyy skali. hahah .
good job bby. im really happy skali.
was in school till about 12plusplus.
headed home, rest , bathe.
went westmall to meet nad.
then walked around to get naf's friend a present.
reached home at 5.
slept till 62om like tht.
was awaken by bby's call .
halfway through the phnecall, pp8 habis. =.=
wanted to top up but mum said no need cos tmw she giving me my line number.

so tmw night there's pementasan at victoria.
grandad sending me there, but will be going home by myself most probably.
i wanna spend time with bby.
i miss him like crazy.
:D

2010-02-07T19:43:00.002+08:00

this week has been an emotional week i tell you.
dont need to know why.
i just feel damn bad.
hais.

currently studying for chem test.

2010-02-04T23:19:00.002+08:00

haiyaaaa,
im sighing everyday .
and that kinda sucks.
hmmppph.
im going to complain of how tired i am right now.
:P

PEEEEENNNNNNNNNAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT.

2010-02-03T23:17:00.003+08:00

ok, im tired.
tired from coming home late from school everyday.
tired of doing homework till late night.
tired of having to think of so many things.
tired of having priorities.
tired of being prioritised.
TIRED OF EVERYTHING.
even having a boyfriend is tiring.
being yourself is tiring.
trying to be someone else in front of everyone else is MUCH MORE tiring.
making daddy happy is tiring.
understanding everything is tiring.

you know ?
haiyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

BIG SIGHS

2010-02-02T19:58:00.002+08:00

ok yeah,
23rd jan was vivo sentosa outing.
had fun of course.
following days after that are as usual busy and all.
haiyaaaa.
no rest you know.
not even the weekends anymore.

school has been very busy.
no time to do LOADS of things.
but nemind.
its only for this year.
i'll get through it.

2010-01-21T20:16:00.002+08:00

another week of not updating.
really sorry.
school's been hectic.
this and that.
haiyaaa .
no ressssstttt .
im kinda getting used to staying back everyday with or without reason .
hahah.
if not, i'll be fcuked up lazy to stayback in school anyway.
hmmpph.

had training today .
was okok lah .
then had a talk in school.
went home ard 640 ?
bby sent me halfway , its okay though.
i knw he was tired anyway.
reached home ard 705pm.
hmmm .
have to study lahhhh .
byebye people.
will post again someday.

2010-01-14T22:17:00.002+08:00

ola people.
sorry for not updating.
bust with LOADS of things.
school has been okay.
nothing interesting.
only stressing and frustrating.

had netball training awhile jst nw.
haiya . i dont even wanna talk about netball.
sakit hati ehh .
anywayyys, i just finished with homeworks.
loads of them everyday .
mcm tak stop2 gtu.
O levels lah kannnn .

will post again someday .
bye people.

2010-01-05T20:14:00.002+08:00

yes yes.
second day of school.
went to school with bby, ika and her guy plus dee.
(:
so far have started with SS and Core.
SS was ok . and Core as usual , boring.
well ,
something happened aft malay class today.
haiya .
lazy want talk bout it.
im done with maths revisions with all the topics in this year maths except chapter 4 and 6.
=.=

tht malay test was nonsense.
write all the nonsense inside.
hahah.
training on thurs , can stay bck in school with bby. :D
since bby got soccer.

reached home tday then text bby.
aft tht i fall asleep.
woke up around 4plus.
mandi and all.
im starting to get eye bags again.
sleeping early tonight , i think.
since there's nothing much to do .

thank god, had DNT just now.
missed mdm hamidah alot.
(:

2010-01-04T19:06:00.001+08:00

currently studying maths.
semangat lah kannnn.
first day of school was not so bad.
went to school with bby then bby sent me home.
:D

2010-01-03T00:09:00.001+08:00

stayed home all day.
got angry. got to know nafiah's secret.
oooooooooooooooh.
school's starting soooooooooooooooooonnnnnnnn.
LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAZZZZZZZZZZZZZZYYYYYYYYYYY.

2009-12-31T11:34:00.000+08:00

didnt do much.

days are as usual.

currently chatting with bby (:

I MISS EVERYBODY !

HUGE SIGHS.

2009-12-29T20:49:00.003+08:00

today just went out to send mummy to work.
then headed to jurong , then west coast to eat.
then fetched uncle from work.
then went to the bank.
then went home.
the worse thing is that, my prepaid is low.
saddening.
hmph.
so i only texted bby for awhile using nafiah's hp.
she's annoying and fcuking selfish ahkayyy.
hummmmmpppph.

well , its just less than a week away from school reopens.
i did about 75% of my maths homework.
and 0% of my core geog hmework.
tht sucksssss .
im tired of school.
i dont want to go school anymore.
but i have to lah haaaaaaaaa.
~~annoying people.~~
pppppppppffffffffffffffffftttttttttttttttt.

2009-12-28T11:14:00.003+08:00

went out with daddy and younger siblings yest.
daddy bought me a new mp3.
thankyoualotalot.
i love daddy yknw.
hahahs.
nafiah was jealous >.<
so i promised to buy her an mp3 if she passes her mid year exam.
lets see how well she does.
:D

will be going to teckwhye? today.
nafiah wants to buy new polo tee.
no idea whts wrng with her current one.
hmmppph.
its the last week of holiday.
next week is school already.
time passes so fast , doesnt it .
haiyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

2009-12-27T14:50:00.002+08:00

org2 dlm rumah ni BISING .
teramat BISING.
tak habis2 nak memekak.
satu hari tak boleh diam.
ape saje je org2 ni sume tau.
aku dah stress.
mls aku nk dgr drg nye bising.
bingitttttttttttttttttttttt.
masuk telinga kanan, kluar telinga kiri .
blablablabla.
drg ingt drg sempurna sgt peerrrr ?
:P
shuddup sdh kay.
telinga aku sakit nak dgr merepek2 ni sume.
nak bebel kan, bebel ah sorang2.
tkde org lyn !
BELO nye orang ni sume.
hmmmpppppppph.
satu hari tkde ketenangan.
lari rumah also best. dok rumah bby ke kan.
HAHAHAHA.
school reopen baru balik.
lol. kay, merepek.

2009-12-26T17:22:00.000+08:00

AKU BORED AND FUCKING FRUSTRATED.

fcuked up, stressed up.

2009-12-25T21:52:00.004+08:00

hmm, i know. 2nd post.
haiyaaa .
i dont know whats up with me today. really.
im just all moody and restless.
was otp with bby for awhile just now.
and now he's playing soccer.
so tmw, im not gg msia.
yay me. hmm.
im not okay, i dont know why.
there's alot of things running through my mind.
from A till Z.

kakak's hardly around cos of work.
so we dont talk about stuffs like we used to very often.
and it kinda sucks.
mummy's the same case. except that i hardly tell her about my problems and all. she's the one i spend time joking around with.
daddy is only home from morning till aftnn.
and he would usually be sleeping in the morning aft coming home from work. he's easy going. doesnt really care bout whats going on around. and at least he lets me have my privacy. unlike mummy and grandma.
as for nafiah ? i dont usually share stuff with her. its difficult to tell her things. its either she doesnt understand or just doesnt care.
some people may have grandmothers to turn to apart from all the other people. but i dont think my grandma is someone i can turn to. she'll just nag it off. haiyaaa.

so it only comes to one person tht i have now.
just myself.
bby might tell me tht im not alone since i have him.
but i cant possibly be telling all my problems to him and expect him to cheer me up all the time right ?
the thing with me is tht, i dont tell people whats going on with me.
i dont tell my parents , sisters, friends, wht more bby.
mummy always tell me to share my problems and doubts with her.
THATS WHT EVERYONE TELLS ME.
but im doing them a favour by not adding to their stress.
and besides, whenever i feel this way, these people are always not around.
so whts the use right ?
i dont want school to start. i dont even wanna go to school.
i wanna quit school, can i ?

i dont know who or what is pissing me off.
but i really really really really cant take it.
i feel the pressure already.
the pressure of everyone around me telling me to do them proud.
the pressure of the major exam im gonna sit for.
the pressure of having someone missing you and wanting to meet you when you really cant do anything about it but tell them to wait.
and the pressure of everything else that matters.

its stressing you know.
and im not the kind of person to be able to handle these kind of things.
sure, i'll pull through. but when , how ?
people tell me im strong enough, how sure are you ?

my bby love ,

2009-12-25T18:18:00.004+08:00

today would be just another day, okay.
might be following grandparents to msia tomorrow.
i really need time on my own.
but you know, i cant brg myself to since i have bby.
i think bout alot of things lately.
school will reopen soon enough.
too early for me to make my decisions.
im just really glad and thankful for bby's understanding and concern.
it just comes to show how amazing he can be in a relationship.
(:
and yeah, i appreciate everything about him.
we might have known each other as friends for quite some time.
but this relationship we share just gives us the chance to get to know each other much more deeper.
he might not have the looks but he has the heart.

2009-12-24T16:57:00.003+08:00

there's nothing much to post about.
my days have been so far, so good.
FPO is cancelled, and thats bad.
hmm.
i miss bby alot.
but only i know how lazy i am to get out of the house.
besides not being able to go out.
im so sorry .
hmmmpppph.

i miss everyone.
girlfriends, mdm hamidah.
and, i got money alr !
yay !
hahah.
uhm , bt the spending will have to hold till next week.
gonna go out with mummy again for movies and shopping.
ive decided to not buy the dress.
cos after much thought, i wouldnt know the right event and place to where it anyway.

currently texting with bby.
&guess wht, i miss AQILAH . :D

2009-12-22T12:44:00.002+08:00

well ,
busy week.
hmmph.
on sunday went to msia AGAIN.
got jemputan uhhh .
reached home around 7pm then bathe, go to westmall.
buy stuffs.
went home, text text text. sleep.
:D

then yesterday ,
went to orchard with mummy , kakak and that irritating little brother of mine.
:D
but then , we headed to westmall first cos kakak left her wallet at work =.=
baru MRT-ed to outram , and bus-ed to orchard.
headed to far east to eat . then walk2 around to find for stuff.
then went to TAKA, then Isetan. then headed to Parkway .
kt parkway , went inside isetan , got this dress, lawa like hell.
told mummy i'll buy it next week.
i still need to save money for next year's trip !
lpas gy parkway , go eat then bus-ed home.
smpi rumah ard 1045pm.
:D
bathe and all , text text text.
go crazy with mummy in the room , then sleep.
today , jst gnna bake cookies i guess.
dah penat, tak habis2 kluar.

anyways,
daddy planned to go Las Vegas and Los Angeles next year.
but then, lau nk tukar duit america kan , rugi bnyk seh .
so me, kakak and mummy are planning for Korea AGAIN.
yesssssa ! its more worth it . :D
need to save money for this trip ! mmmhm.
but the sad thing is, if i go there, i cant text bby for a whole week.
and thts bad. haiya.
):

2009-12-19T12:05:00.003+08:00

16December
this night, was texting with bby .
but aft bby went to sleep, moon ki texted me.
he asked me to call his house, wanted to talk bout something.
i know, he knows.
hmmpph.
slept at 2am.

17December
was busy and was texting with bby too.
whole day like dat.
thats bout it. i guess.
hahah .

18December
woke up at 530am.
and was lying ard on the bed , lazy to get up.
bby texted me at 553am.
haha.
he told me he woke up at 430am .
dont know wht he was doing also.
text text text.
then ard 7plus, i told him tht i would text him ltr.
so ard 9plus , i texted him.
didnt reply for quite some time, and found out he fell asleep.
kesiaaaann .
in the aftnn, went to msia.
was having fcuking headache in the car.
cant take long car rides. =.=
so reached msia, textd bby using daddy's phone.
talk2 with cousins, went off to Tesco.
came back , helped out with the dishes.
since there was kenduri .
and i saw tht guy , 0.o
i know, nafiah knows.
:D
headed home from msia ard 10plus.
reached home at exaclty midnight.
wash up everything.
texted bby.
then we were otp .
aft he slept at 1 , i sleep.

TODAY
woke up at 530am.
but sleep back cos was too tired.
i set my alarm to 630am.
but kakak used my phne the night before and the battery went flat. so the alarm didnt 'ring'.
and i woke up at 11am.
tireddddddddddddd .
bby told me he went to play soccer and will only be back at 2pm.
and he would top up his pp8 by then. so, okay .
waiting uhhhh .
;D

2009-12-16T15:28:00.002+08:00

today, was woken up by mummy around 9am ?
i wanted to wake up late since we've alr got a maid. FINALLY.
helped mummy out with something.
then mummy told me tht she dreamt bout me.
she asked me bout my relationship. WEIRD.
i just smiled at her and i told her it doesnt matter who im with as long as she knows i keep my promise to not relationship get in the way of studies and get good grades. yeah , the typical promise.
and i keep my promises.
:D
i thought she would scold me lah haa .
but guess wht ? she laughed it off . wth . =.=

another boring day ahead.
not gg training tmw(if there is), i'll be busy from morning till at least late aftnn . hell yeah .
friday and saturday also busy . boring seyh gini ! hummmpppph.
but then sunday, gg off to msia.
tht means, i'll be using my msia number(most probably).
if not, i wont be texting in msia. :(

2009-12-15T19:41:00.002+08:00

okay , well , today . . .
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
daddy bought breakfast again .
then when he woke up ard 12plus.
he mandi and all.
then me, him and adek headed to westmall.
then aft tht, went to gombak to buy food.
daddy was craving for spring chicken.
:D

came back home, eat. rested awhile.
thn i went out with grdma.
went to westmall first then headed to IMM.
bought some stuffs at IMM.
taxi-ed home. was in a hurry.
reached home, cooked dinner.
prepared daddy's food. daddy went to work .

this week kinda busy and all .
yest ; dad's bday .
today ; out .
tomorrow ; busy.
thurs ; busy.
fri ; maybe out.
sat ; maybe out.
sun ; gg msia.

im tired and bored right now.
and i miss bby ALOT.
0.o
pp8's running low.
nemind, tmw i top up . :D

NAQIAH, CONFIRM MATI MLM NI . :D

2009-12-14T15:00:00.004+08:00

ahay .
yeahyeah . today's dad's birthday . YAY HIM.
haha.
well, bby's pp8 is low and im fcuking bored.
i have no idea how many times i cried yest.
i really cant accept that fact.
but the thing is, i dont see it happening currently.
i dont know lah.
things are just so complicated right now, i dont what to say.

went out with mummy awhile ago.
took cab. i dropped off at bukit timah while she went on her way to work.
she gave me $160.
hmm. $110 was meant to be deposited.
and the remaining $50 was supposed to be used for daddy's gift.
BUT then, cause i frgt she gave me the $50 to but the gift thinking that she wanted me to use the NETS..
and i clumsily deposited the $160.
and used the NETS to buy daddy's gift.
i didnt check the receipt and all thinking ive deposited $110.
until mummy called and asked how much the gift was.
it was $79, so she asked where did the other $ 29 came from.
and i told her i used the NETS.
now she's angry . hahah .
when she gets back tonight, cnfrm she's gnna ask for her $50.
im so DEAD.
haha .

well, daddy went out to IMM to get his left4dead 2 ?
i dont know.
hmm.
i told nad i wanted to buy him the gaming headset or whatever they call it.
it was $89 and MORE worth it. but some people just didnt want to listen rigttttt . haiyaa.
now kene jwb kt mama. aku yg mati. ape saje je lah org kt dunia ni semuaaaaa. :P

wht to do kan, cnt blame me for my stupidity today.
its my clumsy day . 0.o
REALLY.
from bukit timah, supposed to take any other bus to get to WM instead of 173.
so i very the pandai, go take 173, end up at clementi.
HAHAH.
then from there, i took 106 .
baru meet kakak to get daddy's present.
i dont know wht stupid thing is gnna hppn to me aft this.
=.=

currently texting with bby.
he's using naz's number.
not chatting with anyone.
OH YEAH ,
training anyone ? tmw ? anyone ? TEXT MEEEE !
:D

2009-12-14T14:40:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 42ND BIRTHDAY DADDY !

hope today is the best day this whole month.
sorry i didnt get you a present. next year perhaps kay (:
i love you manymanymany daddy.
thanks for always, ALWAYS being THERE when i needed comfort.
thankyou for being the person to cheer my days up with your funny jokes and all. AAAAAAAAAAHHHHH !
THANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOU.
ILOVEYOUILOVEYOUILOVEYOU!
:D
have a great day ahead yeah pops. haha .

PLEASE, NOT AGAIN .

2009-12-13T21:09:00.002+08:00

mmhmm.
well, today is just another boring boring boring day.
as usual, texted bby when i woke up.
daddy bought breakfast for 3 days straight alr and tmw is his birthday.
planning on preparing a birthday breakfast fr daddy (:
hmm.

anyways,
got to know stuffs from nafiah.
saddening and wat the hell-ing.
haiyaaaa .
i dont know how its gonna end up.
i dont know whats even gnna happen now.

HAPPY MONTHSARY BBY ! :D

2009-12-11T19:42:00.004+08:00

HAPPY MONTHSARY BBY ! :D
hello hello people.
im back from class bbq.
well, met up with dee under her block around 12plus.
then met up with herwan and gang outside the school.
aft that, headed to joel's house.
some were there alr.
then some came ltr on.
mm-hmm.
me and girls confident2 try to start the fire.
but then tak menjadi so asked herwan for help cause the rest of the guys were playing soccer.
waited for alif to come back with the fire starter.
then aft tht, herwan helped with the starting of the fire.
the girls took tht time to play 'soccer'. :P
then the girls helped out with the bbq-ing :D

aft i helped for abit ,
decided to go for a walk alone.
then bby appeared behind me. so we walked together.
he told me tht i should not be walking alone cause he is around but i didnt want to disturb him anyway.
so walked walked. here and there and everywhere.
got back to bbq pit, sat together and talked.
aft awhile, decided to go for another walk.
so walkwalk. here,there,everywhere.
got back to bbq pit,bby went to play soccer.
i helped out abit.
dee told me something. 0.o
seems like somebody got jealous .
hahah .

then 445pm, cleaned and packed up.
told bby tht i was gg home.
he sent me to the gate and then i headed home.
the rest went to joel's house , i think.

daddy was at home alone.
cooked for him abit.
then he headed to work. me and nafiah cleaned up the house.
mummy should be on the way home from malaysia , i think.
hmm.
i miss bby alr. ):

2009-12-09T20:36:00.003+08:00

okay , so anyway ,
yesterday supposed to go for netball training.
met up with bby, then go meet dee.
it was alr 12 by then. planned to go in late so sat under the block .
at 1plus, dee ajak go buy her books. so went in school then go out again.
lazy to go netball. went to RC, called up nisa. ajak go westmall.
walk2 at westmall, then dee and nisa bought ice cream.
and then saw azfar? (if thts how to spell his name) :P
and then walked pass bossini , and out of westmall .
met up with rosa aft that then go meet moon ki, paul and leslie.
chill2 awhile with them then i went home cause i was tired.

i dont know whats up with me yest. started doing maths homewk out of a sudden. hmm. was texting with bby at the same time. then moon ki called. pity him. i know, he know. :P hang up on moon ki , stopped maths hmewk, texted bby, sleep.

today, woke up quite late. i dont care.
:D
kakak went out to the movies with her guy just becos its her off day. =.=
was busy the whole day today. haiyaa.
im fcuking tired. bby's pp8 is low.
but nemind, meeting him tmw. :D

2009-12-09T20:27:00.002+08:00

esp to dimples :
i want to know something from you,
do you know the full story in the first place ? do you know what actually happened ? did you just hear her side of the story ? excuse me eh , u can say whatever you want lah okay. you want to reply back to a tag i wrote on her blog , like how long ago ? mind you eh , the one starting to tag on her blog was my sister eh. my sister is irritating, and thinks she can help me when she really cant . thats why i replied to her tag on wani's blog. please, take the trouble to find out what really happen first since you took the trouble to 'tag' on my blog. i dont understand why eh, aft quite some time we fought, now then you people want talk bout it ? nonsense right ? dah aku tak baik ngn die, dah sdh ah. nk ape lagi ?

2009-12-07T22:28:00.008+08:00

hmm..bored day tday..

bcos the whole day i'm on the comp..btw,i'm pc..

yeah of course..chatting wth my bby..thn,look at other people's blog..

haah..nothing to do at home..

but tmr..i'll be gg training..gg to meet naz first thing in the morn..

cnt recall wht time i woke up tday..hmm..

haha..the best part for tday..

i just join facebook..haha..wth.

my bby asked me to join..haha

but i thnk it's good lah ha..if not i'll be logging on to her facebook and pretending to be her..haha..

disturb dee just nw..sry..didn't mean to..

well nw blogging..after tht i'm gg to sleep early..tired..

2009-12-07T13:53:00.003+08:00

hmm.
elaborate more on yesterday .
in the aftnn, was otp with moon ki. and was chatting with nisa.
and was texting with bby.
at night was chatting with bby,syimah,ika and shahir. (:
everything's back to normal and im really glad.
lets go back to sarawak people. GOGO.
:D

today was woken up by mummy at 9am .
dragged myself out of bed.
yest night, i cudnt sleep well cos there was this irritating drama going on beside me.
hahaha.
kakak was otp with her guy and they were fighting i think.
she was crying. and all i remembered doing was twisting and turning and staring at her.
pissed off cause i cant sleep. haha .

mummy went out with grandma to bossini.
to see kakak at work =.=
LMAO.
i dont if i should go training tomorrow.
mummy told me not to go.
but i alr didnt go for 2 weeks.
but but, i dont feel like going due to this driving me crazy cramps.
im complaining like hell i tell you.

currently chatting with bby (:

2009-12-06T22:39:00.002+08:00

hi!pc here..

hmm..i sleep at 2 last night thn woke up at abt 12..

get up,bath thn prepare to go for training..

but thn i go with nash..

meet him at his grandma's place..thn we went to his house to change and tke my ball..

in the end,went training late..izzul didn't go for training tday..

dnt knw y..but i heard he went out in the morn already..

i have no idea where he go..

hmm..after training..went to pondok to see my other cck frnds..

thn went to hardcourt to play soccer..

thought of playing with those guys..

but in the end they walk away..

haha..dnt knw why..no balls i think..

well..thn i and nash just kick around..

after tht,went home at abt 8 plus i think..

took 188..thn drop halfway and walk home..

haha..just feel like walking..i'm influence by my bby:)..

hmm..went home..solat,bath thn eat..

after tht,text my bby..thn on9..

haha..thn tlk abt someone..a bloody bastard..

haha..nw..BLOGGING..

haha..i just disturb my bby about chocolates..

haha..i'm not gg out tmr cause my mum had been mad at me about gg out all the time..

so tmr just rest at home ahh..

tht's all for tday..

bye2

AKU BOREEEEEEEDDDD :D

2009-12-06T20:32:00.003+08:00

cramps are killing me right now.
seems like family outing will be cancelled.
not too sure yet.
cos kakak and daddy are off on wednesday.
but mummy is off on thursday and friday.
sadded.

there's training on tuesday.
nafiah's not going due to doctor appointment.
and i dont know if i should go cos nobody will be at home to take care of my two younger siblings. still thinking.
hmm.
& i want aqilah to come back NOW. haha .

woke up ard 945am today .
haha. mummy tak bising.
nafiah yang memekak. belo nye bdk .
did normal house chores. but gave up halfway cos of stomach cramps.
all day was texting and otp-ing.
:D

2009-12-06T01:02:00.002+08:00

hey!hey!hey!pc here!

tday is diff frm any other day..

hmm..as per normal,every sat morn..

naz called me to meet him to play soccer..

haha..i was freaking bored at home..

hmm..thn realised my bby texted me in the morn..

she text me at abt 9 plus like tht..i think..

hmm..i and naz went to toh guan and meet the rest..

thn play till abt 2 like tht..thn went home..

as per normal..text my bby and use the comp..

thn my bro asked me to play soccer..again..

haha..just play lah..

hu cares:)..

thn played till 7 plus like tht..wnt home in a bad mood..

but i'm okay nw(biase lah,main bola)..

thn went home bath and called nash to play soccer again..

he's the one hu planned it..

but just go ah..bcos i knw there will not be many people coming..

told you so..hahah..only me,nash and izzul..

hahah..played 'monkey' for a while..thn went home at abt 1030..

reach home like abt 1130..

haha..thn bath..and nw,blogging..

or shud i say typing..

haha..didn't realised my pp8 is low..

nw wht is left i 1 cents..cnt msg my bby..

so i just used my mum's hp ah..

wht did she say?..hmm..she didn't say anything..

i just said tht i'm texting my frnd..tht's all..

nw,my bby is in her dreamland already..

hmm..i'll be joining her ltr..

bcos nw i'm gonna download some songs first..

thn go sleep..

tht's all guys,gals,readers,bloghoppers..

nothing much..nothing exciting..

my last wrds..ily bby:)

2009-12-05T23:58:00.003+08:00

right now,
i really want to thank "watever" and "dimples" for tagging my blog or so.
cause i didnt know you will really take the trouble to.
thank you very much.
:D
if the itik thing has nothing to do with you, i dont understand why you have to get involved. tag at HER blog all you want cos i wont reply to ure tags at her blog. i dont spend my time bloghopping and seeing what other people are talking about me and my siblings kay ?
talk about us all you want.
whats the prize for hating me ? revenge ?
hate me for all i care cos i dont ask for love from you.
yeah, make fun of my name. thanks. daki eyh ? hmm.
not badd. but do try harder kay.
whatever it is lah kay , if you think you hate me, dont go round in my blog telling me . tell me straight to my face unless you dont have the guts.
if you suddenly wnna tag because of my previous post,
why ? siape mkn cili terase pedasnye. hmm .

2009-12-05T12:56:00.003+08:00

aku benci orang yang tak sadar diri okay ?
hate.hate.hate.
so disgusted with these kind of people.
they think they're so great right ?
ewwwwwwwwww.
stopit.stopit.stopit.
its understandable why there are such people in the world.
tsk3. im admitting im not perfect.
but some people dont admit that , do they ?
they just say they're not perfect, but actually, deep inside they think they are. eeeeeeewwww.

kay, drop that topic.
had no idea what time i woke up today .
just did all the normal stuffs to be done.
hmm .
everyone's out except for me and siblings and daddy.
haiyaaaaaaaaaaaa.
when is the next netball training uhhh ?
now i feel like going for training eventhough i hate it like hell.
HAHAHA.
aqilah is alr away to Japan.
missed already . :D come back faster kay qilah !

DEE ! I seriously need to meet and talk to you.
i dont know bout what or why. but aku rindu kau like gyle seyhhh !
go for the next netball training kay ! we gogo together. cabot 1 hr or whaat. can righttt ? hahah .

im fcuking bored .
i wanna get my butts out of the fcuking house .
but too lazy . dont know where to go . who to go with.
AND AGAIN, LAZY !

& to dee,
itu hari kan, that Yong Chong Tan ehh, tak habis2 mintak aku PANTAT pnye email siaaa. irritating pnye budak. just because, he "always see her in the LRT" . lame kape ? =.=

2009-12-04T14:38:00.002+08:00

well, today is like i said before and over again,
another fcuked up day .
hahahaha :D
woke up at 645am at first, and then slept back till 9am.
bgn je, text bby. (:
rinduuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu like shit hell.

okay, so ive sort of got the green light to go grocery shopping with girlfriends next week , pleaseplease :D
abeh, mummy kate nk go watch movie at msia next friday ?
ape seyh ! i got class bbq tau tak mama oi !
haha .
i miss so many people now ):
esp bby. ): ): ):
obviously, i cant wait for next friday and so does bby. hahah .
*winkwink*

aku BORED gyle kat rumah.
perhaps, shud go disturb kakak at her workplace.
but lazy to get my butts out the house.

& DEE ! stop going gaga about that 21st december ! haiyaaaa. u go there, buy ticket so expensive, just to look at his face ? tgk kt TV or internet, dah cukop bagus eyh. susah2 je nk gy. hahaha. :D cheer up lah kay. you'll get to go also in the end. i guess.

2009-12-03T21:16:00.002+08:00

hi..pc here(:..haha,it's been quite a while after i post..ok maybe not a while..

hmm..had a bored day..

i woke up at abt 10 i think..thn realise tht someone read my gf msg..

haha..hu cares..besides,it's my younger bro who read it..

hmm..having cough rite nw..

i knw y..

hmm..gonna see doc tmr..haha..at least can escape ncc 4 tmr..

hmm..thought of playing soccer just nw..

but thn..nobody called..

so just dnt care lah..after all i'm just tired after the camp..

the soccer camp..

haha..wht did i enjoy the most during the camp??

haha..it's just the night walk..haha..

haha..during the night walk..i can hear guys screaming like girls man..

hahah..it's a lot of fun..

haha..thn caught one of my frnds wearing telekong..haha..

he tried to scare me..lucky i saw him first be4 me..

hmm..didn't do alot of things tday..

cause i'm tired..all the way stay at home msg my girl and use the comp..

hmm..my ipod is jam..wth.

so damn bored rite nw..

hmm..i'm hppy tht my bby is okay nw..

nw..i'll just hope tht i'll get well as i'm coughing like mad rite nw..

just gonna sleep at abt 12 like tht..

maybe gonna be otp with my gf..

hmm..i miss my bby:(..

2009-12-03T15:18:00.004+08:00

oh well,
another fcuked up day today i tell you.
was woken up by my irritating younger siblings noise.
did the usual household chores in the morning.
mummy cooked today, so thats one less job for me(:

i miss bby right now.
):
haiya.
there's class bbq next week.
and there's family outing next week too.
there's daddy's birthday nextnext mnday .
there's still birthday presents i need to buy for those birthdays in January and those that i promised. (:

IM FCUKING BORED AND TIRED.
save me somebody.
HAHAHAH.
shut up naqiah,
:P

2009-12-02T21:46:00.002+08:00

All that I'm after, is a life full of laughter

im glad that finally they are talking again.
thank you , for answering my prayers.
today is as any other day.
was woken up at 8am when i can actually get up at 10am.
i fell asleep for 5mins at noon.
got up cos mummy came home.
then fell asleep again around 6pm ?
but got up once again cos uncle came home.
went inside the room and snored off till 630pm.
hahah .
was damn damn damn damn tired okayyyyy !
there's netball tomorrow.
guess i have to go.
missed out 3 games and 1 practice alr.

aww, & ika.
dont feel that way lah kay. please.
you know im always here for you .
even if you feel like that, you can always come talk to me like you always do. im all ears kay. cheer up babe. :D

if my time on earth was through, he has to face this world without me. ):

2009-12-01T20:16:00.004+08:00

talk about yesterday first kay .
netbll match with regent. didnt go .
sick, tired, not in the mood, busy.
cleaned up the house as usual.
cooked late.
went out to IMM with grandparents to buy some stuffs.
reached home, i cooked roasted chicken and baked potato.
sedaaaaaaaaaap. :D
at night , otp with pclove till 1230.

and today,
netbll match with jurong sec. didnt go.
sick, tired, not in the mood, busy.
gfs ajak go swimming, also never go.
tired, busy, fcuked uppppp .
hmm .
cleaned up the house.
slept from 130pm till 315pm.
had fun talking to daddy when he came back from work.
(:
he went to sleep aft i did. he woke up around 5plus.
disturb him. haha. i love my daddy (:
mummy was not in a good mood and i dont know why.
too many things happening.
and mummy should tell herself that if she has problems at work, dont bring that problem back home and vent it out on others okay ?
i dont like it and we're not idiots to be screamed at.

TO THE PEOPLE IT MAY CONCERN :
please kay, stop saying things you dont know about.
stop accusing without evidence. i grew up in this household being taught not to blame others. i wonder, why the people who taught me all these didnt apply it to themselves. honestly, i think i know him better. a whole lot better. i may only have known him for 15years of my life. but throughout these 15 years, he was the one i looked up to for every problem i faced/had. he may have made mistakes before. but we are humans arent we? dont tell me you havent make a mistake before. there are reasons to why he's like that. i dont dare ask cos im afraid that i have no right to know. i can see how hard he is trying. and i love him alot. but i couldnt accept what you said yesterday. he went out of the house earlier than he was supposed to. and just becos he didnt tell anyone, you said alot of things about him. and tell me how surprised you were when he called home and asked me to bring down his packed food and drink. tell me. i did ask him why he went out early, and guessed what ? no, he didnt go meet another ~~woman~~, he went to get a haircut and repair his motorcycle. whatever you said hurt me alot you know. i wonder what made you say all that. just because he has been coming back home late from work and always not eating when he comes home? think the positive things. he might have alot of things to do at work. and he did once told me he went to have breakfast with his ex-colleagues. so what is your problem actually ? so please stop asking me why he always come home late from work cause from what i think, your mind is thinking a whole lot of other things. STOP IT OKAY ? i know you're my elder and i have no right to go against you but i swear, one more time you talk about him like that, i am going to tell you off. okay ?

AQILAH ; i want it now ! pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee.

2009-11-30T20:16:00.003+08:00

GIRLFRIENDSSSS !
i really really really wanna go with you people tomorrow.
haiyyyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

2009-11-30T09:54:00.002+08:00

yesterday was the same old.
went out to wedding dinner with mummy .
reached home sometime before 11pm.
the wedding was at FOOCHIEW building. or something like that.
bus-ed to Kallang then ABG BOY picked us up .
awww, he looks so hot yesterday .
Kak Wani too . (:
i was zoning most of the time.
cause most of the people there are mummy's colleagues.
the bride was super mmphhh. hahah. :P

anyways,
aft reach home, texted pclove.
then called him around 11plus.
talked till 1230.
i miss him like hell.
and i miss girlfriends too .
:D

2009-11-28T19:28:00.001+08:00

"Kita manusia hidup sekejap sahaja, segala ditentukanNYA."

well, the reason for this was because, i was suddenly thinking about my late uncle yesterday. i did cry. cos everything was unexpected. who would know that he was sick right? he didnt tell anyone. hmm.
i was texting with pclove. and i told him about it. that up there, was somewhat what he told me. i was okay after that cos he is right.
i dont know how ayah Basri's condition is now. havent contacted that family over at pelegong yet. but will be visiting them really soon.

2009-11-27T10:30:00.002+08:00

hello readers,
SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA.
:D

hmm .
im so tired okay .
haiya.
have not been sleeping well for the past week .
sleep late, wake up early .
the temp maid went back on wednesday night.
well, obviously, mummy only hired her because i went for kem obor.
which i will go out the house early in the morning and come back at night.
like fcuk okay ?

kakak's working . i understand she's tired when she comes back from work.
but i swear, she doesnt have to mess up the room and leave it as it is before she leaves for work . irritating.
and nafiah , she is as usual plain lazy and hopeless.
so during the monday to wednesday this week,
its obvious that these people hardly did any chores.

what annoyed me the most was coming home from obor on wednesday night to find fcuked up mess in the house.
the maid couldnt care less.
what more nafiah . kakak was out to work .
the rest was at malaysia .
i didnt complain , so just cleaned up the mess with the help of my little brother who is very much more helpful than nafiah .

and i even had to help in keeping all the groceries and stuffs that the rest brought back from malaysia.
slept late that night.
damn it .
the next day was worse cos i was woken up at 7plus to clean the bloody house.
fcuk it yknw.
what pissed me off was, why was i the only one who was woken up ?
how bout nafiah and nadhirah ?
nafiah was sleeping like a fcuking pig on the sofa.
and didnt even bother waking up eventhough she heard the vaccuum .
as for kakak, she woke up 2 hours before her work starts, bathe , met her boyf and go to the shop, change up and headed for work.
oh yeah, not forgetting leaving the room in a mess.

daddy came back from work , couldnt care less, bathe, eat and slept.
i was just hoping nafiah could be a help.
but all she did when she woke up was bathe , eat and watched tv.
i had to bathe my younger siblings, mop the house and even cook.
wat the fcuk .
knowing the kitchen was in a big mess, grdma can still ask me to do other stuffs despite seeing me struggling to clean up the mess.

the other people in the house can still happily eat lunch while i was still going round the house, cleaning.
i was folding the clothes when mummy came back from work.
seems like she's the only one who cares bout me.
i was fcuking tired until i had no mood to eat breakfast and lunch.
and i dont think mummy and daddy are in good terms.
i dont know what the problem is now.
haiyaaaaaaaaaa.

i was so tired yest that i cried when mummy asked me to rest.
i texted pclove. and was on the phone with dee .
but by the time i was otp with dee, i alr stopped crying.
i cant stand it lah kay.
so at night, grdparents ajak me go clementi cos got kenduri .
met pclove awhile to give him back his mem card.
headed to clementi , reached home at i dont know what time.
slept a few miutes after midnight.

today is the same thing.
kakak woke up early cos her work started at 9am.
i was sleeping but then i heard grdpa asked kakak why im not up yet cos i need to clean the house. LIKE FCCUUUUUKKKKK !
sume org nak harapkan aku ,
beh lau aku nk buat keje sorang2 , senang lau rumah ni aku dok sorang2 kan ? yang lain sume takle harap.
korang sume ckp senang uh, yg aku sorang je yg bole harap.
tak bermakne , korang tk pyh suroh yg lain buat keje kan ?
aku jadi maid korang pe skg ? shit btol.

2009-11-25T22:52:00.004+08:00

well ,
today is the last day of OBOR.
had loads of fun with my teammates and Ashey's group too .
alot of paiseh moments and stuff.

and so, fun stuffs have to come to an end right ?
the results of this OBOR :
YI WEEZIT won 4th place.
eventhough BOOM didnt win , they won experience.
and thats good enough . dont worry people, we join again next year !
haha.
:D

yest was very very very tiring.
came back home and had to do up article for today's competition.
well, i had to do up 3 but i didnt mind as it was my job.
stayed up till 230am to finish everything up .
and im freaking tired right now.
might be sleeping late today but waking up late too tmrw. (:

anyways,
those people are back from sarawak !
ahha.
met up with ila aft obor.
lek2 until 7pm .
hmm .

2009-11-23T22:49:00.002+08:00

hey2!PC here.haha!great day tday bcos went home with HER and HER friends...but before that..i meet izzul first thing in the morning,we plan to print some pics in sch for something ah..
then meet ros in sch also to take SCRAPbook..after that look for a teacher to help us print...see ms chia to ask for help but end up talking abt o'levels..haiya
after that went to cck to lepak with izzul..but ros went home alone..
at cck,text HER then all of a sudden she got mad..she was mad abt something else..after a while, called HER,SHE said SHE was okay..
then meet HER at gombak to eat with aqilah and nisa..
haha..
told HER tht i didn't bring any money,so i'm not eating...
got there,they ordered some drinks..haha
aqilah can't open the can..then when i try to open it,some of the drink spill on my shirt..haha..i will learn frm my mistake nisa!
eat3(:then walk with HER to send HER home..
then when reach at HER void deck,saw her sis in pyjamas i think..haha..sardine je..after tht went home..
can't wait to see u this wed syg(:

2009-11-23T20:52:00.003+08:00

oh well people, today is obor day one.
hmm.
it was overall not bad okay .
had fun here and there.
got pissed also .
hahah . ;D
did some tasks, took LOADS of pictures which most of them are in aqilah's camera. laugh here and there.
we did arrive late today and so we dont care.
hahah :D

well, i still have something to do yknw.
one article i have to finish upp.
yeahh . cos im the reporter.
=.=
everything finished at 5pm .
pclove called thought i was angry at him 0.o
only the girls know why i was angry (:
headed to gombak to eat. pclove met me there.
dee went to wm and back home cos scared late.

me, nisa , qilah and pclove went to eat dinner.
hahah .
suapsuapsuap die mkn tau ! haha .
mcm bdk kecil gituuuu . :D
something happened while eating. sssshhhh .
so anyway, headed home around 653 pm ? hahah .
walked home with all of them.
qilah and nisa went up my house cos nisa wanted to use the toilet.
then aft that she mcm phm want to meet mk .
so i called him then he called back use hse phne.

told him nisa want meet him and stuff.
but in the end, the two never meet =.=
haiya.
aft that, i went to bathe and stuff.
now im here, blogging.
some obor photos uploaded to fb.
(:

2009-11-22T23:03:00.002+08:00

hey!it's me again...
hmm..cnt forget wht had hppened on tht tagboard yesterday...wnna knw wht hppen??...it's like counter strike,just tht it's using wrds...bcos there is one dog mumbling abt shit...kay,dnt talk abt him...
haha...just remember wht happen this morning(morning as in at 2am)...
hahahaha!!nemind,i dnt wnt to tlk abt people...
slept at 4.15 this mrning bcos went to wtch soccer at naz house...in the end play uno...
hmm..woke up at 12.30...the alarm didn't wake me,my younger brother did...he kicked me on the face whn he was sleeping,wht the fcuk...chck hp,got a msg frm HER and izzul...
hmm..had a bath,eat thn prepare to go for training..
umm..went to training alone...izzul?he says he is nt coming.nash?he went to cambodia.benaiah?i dnt knw
after training,went home alone...tired like hell
reach home at 7 plus..my dad thought i lpk..wth...
then...bath,clean my soccer boots thn eat..
SHE was online and waiting for me..
dad gave me a lecture...talk3...
hmm..just feel sry to keep HER waiting..sry syg):
when i'm online she is offline...
nw..my dad wnt to use the comp...
okay so nt much ah...
ily syg(:

2009-11-22T20:16:00.002+08:00

haha. hello people.
yest night was some funny shit i tell ya.
dont worry dee, i'll tell you tmw.
hahah .
so forget bout that qifli freak.

today woke up at 645am .
bathe and stuff, went out to meet chin yen and brg her over to the netball court.
the other girls came abit later.
i stayed with them at the tournament for the first game only.
haahah. cos i had stuff to do at home.
planned to go and see them again but then lazy to get my butt down there.
hahah.

so around 11plus while everyone else was out,
left with me , nafiah and daddy at home.
i was so bored, i fell asleep.
then pclove msged me around 12plus.
told me he just woke up =.=
bole gtu ? tsk3.
so halfway texting him , i fell asleep.
and ended up replying his msg 4ominutes late.
sorry syg :)

decided to just wake up cos the rest came home alr.
did this and that.
watched tv. walked around the house like sesat .
then danced around the house with my two younger cute little adeks.
haha .
funny.

so there's kem obor tmw.
cant wait.
but yknw, pclove's sad. haha .
i'll be back home aft every day lah syg kayy .
we meet on wednesday aite ? (:
ok so,
im texting pclove right now.
miss him like hell siaaaaaaaaaa.
):

2009-11-21T22:12:00.002+08:00

To Our dearly (deep inside really) MISERABLE Passerby.

I understand how deep your jealousy is raging inside you right now because your girlfriend's boobs are so small , and that you can only suck her little black/pink nipples . I really feel for you that you lack in this satisfaction in your relationship. How pitiful (but seriously,i don't even think you have a girlfriend).

You're not an adult,you're not a child, but you make yourself look and sound like an animal. I think even animals don't want to be animals knowing that you're one of them. Then,you call everybody else whore? Did your parents seriously give you that little attention when you were young?

And you comment on others' relationships like your relationship is anymore serious than theirs? If you're a guy, don't be such a pussy and hide yourself behind the LED screen of your computer and show your "MAN-NESS" infront of ALL of us because we don't disturb people like how you are. You are so immature , so for you to be telling us that you're in a relationship , (seriously,my heart totally goes out to your "boobless" girlfriend).

And i thought previously you mentioned you have better things to do than hogging 24hours at our attacks towards you, SO WHY ARE YOU STILL HERE?
You're just plain jealous and filled with serious lonely issues , so you go figure that out for yourself okay? GODDAMN PUSSY.

2009-11-21T19:08:00.002+08:00

halo!halo!PC here...haha...dnt be shock kayszszs.must get use to it...
ya i knw u'll be saying "this is nt ur blog rite $@#$#!!!"...haha...btw i post once in a while only...ya..
hmm...woke up at 8.30...text HER then go mandi...went to see naz then go street soccer...fuhhh!!!almost everyday sey play soccer...end up gg home with leg cramps...ouch!!!hmm...while waiting 4 othrs to come...text HER,play psp...wth..they took an hour to reach here...slowpokes...haha..
finish playing at 1.30 then lepak awhile...after tht mcm biase go naz house play xbox...haha..otw there i almost fell dwn...haha...then got 1 guy almost fell dwn but whn he wnt to regain balance,his hnds were everywhre...he was like dancing yknw...
hmm...thought of gg to clementi to take usb for ipod...but whn i called him,nvr pick up...
at naz house,wtch some funny vids...haha...thn play his xbox..feel like sleeping hlfway..hmm...cnt concentrate playing bcos my mind is thinking abt HER...miss u so much...
ouhya...my mum knw about us both..lucky she is in a good mood tht time..if nt she will give the stern face(padehal muke dah cramp mcm nk 'hasrat' gitu)haha...she only say "blom keje dah ade pompuan eh"...tht's all...thn she left the room...wht i do??...haha...just smile...beh nk ckp ape lagi...she open up our conversation sey IN FRONT OF ME,thn i was speechless...
nw...hmm...solat thn go naz house play xbox,or online and chat with HER...
tmr i'll be having soccer training...soccer again...wah!can die sey!
so..umm...nthing much...
syg u sngtsngt

2009-11-21T16:02:00.003+08:00

oh well,
i dont know what the hell is wrong with people in the house.
haiya.
for no reason, some people just get pissed off.
nonsense i tell you.
then scold people for nothing.
wat the hell lah .

hmm.
pclove(: will post later i guess.
so wait for his post lah kay .
i dont what to post ready.
fcuking boredddddd .

2009-11-20T18:17:00.002+08:00

hello people.
aww, my pclove posted. hahah .
(:
okay, so anyway.
went to school today .
waited for nisa then met dee .
met aqilah in school.
had kem obor briefing.
hmm .
AQILAH ; masok lmbt kayy. and stop irritating me with wat happened in the class just now. paiseh like shit. hahah . ;D

meeting ended dont know what time.
headed to MCD and had lunch?
hmm.
talk2, eat2 then went home around 1pm.
before that , went to the bank and topup pclove's pp8.
(:
around 2plus.
nisa called and ajak go orchard.
asked mummy, she allow.
dah siap2, about to go out then daddy came back .
he dont allow go. fcuk i tell you .
haiya.
pclove ended up not going also.
hmm.

im bored like hell.
):
whatever lahh ,
cant wait for OBOR.

2009-11-20T11:38:00.002+08:00

hey!hey!hey!

hmm... just got bored:(dnt knw wht to do with the comp

ouhya!i almost forgot..intro..well you knw it doesn't sound like HER...

hmm.. she ask me to post...ya,but it's okay..i'm her PC(i knw it sounds funny but it's not wht u think it is,not personal comp or wht shit okay)..haha..lve her so much..

haha!the last time i post a blog was JANUARY..wth.but not here,in my own blog...hmm..now tht blog..isolated..i dnt care,who cares...

hmm...just text her this morning,i woke up at abt nine...i think...just dreamt abt her tht night...hmm..wish u were here syg.

last night,she made me worried to the core...haha...told me she wnted an alone time...then at abt 8 she text me..text,text,text,text...

hmm..thn listen to songs frm my ipod..fuhh!the ipod is 'dying'...the charger is wth my frnd..the ipod shld be dead by nw..

hmm...tonight gonna play soccer wth CCK frnds...be home by abt 12 like tht...

so...umm...nothing much...

just wnt to tell her...ily dear(:

2009-11-19T20:03:00.002+08:00

oh well.
had netball just now.
no idea there was friendly match.
hmm.
played with temasek and commonwealth.
not bad lahh.
veryveryvery tiring.

everything finished around 330pm.
took group photo then headed out of school with ika, rusy and naf.
went to RC to meet pclove(:
ajak dee down. then talk2.
left for home at 440pm .
walked home with dee and naf =.=

aww, and right now, i miss my pclove.
haiya.
im really really really . .
dont know what to say lah.
hmm.
i dont want to be having a distant friendship with her laaaa .
im really really sorry yknw. i miss all the times that we share our thoughts and problems and the times we do stupid stuffs.
please,please, bring that time backkk .
haisss.

2009-11-17T23:31:00.002+08:00

well,
yesterday was really a freaking weird day .
came back from training, was resting in the room.
then the door bell rang.
thought nad came home but then when my younger siblings open the door, got nobody there.
so i thought that it was some stupid idiots who have no life.
then at night , after i watch paranormal activity with nad ,
around 9plus, the freaking door bell rang again.
i looked out the peephole but nobody.
nenek was standing next to me and while looking at the peephole, the doorbell rang again, nobody outside.
like fcuk sia.
aft the third time, uncle got pissed and was looking under the door to see if got any shadows or legs.
but then got nothing.
its not unusual uh, cos it happened last year.
but last year more worst.
when it happened last year, money in the house started going missing.
whatever anyway , nothing like that happened today, so its okay i guess.

wake up in the morning, hoping for a good day,
i was told about another problem .
haiyaaaaa.
pagi2, make me stress.
but its okaylah , im used to it.
and anyway, pclove is always there at the right time to make my day (:
went to nature park with mummy again today.
i know everyone in the house is stressed out.
so am i, but i'll try not to show.
hmm.

currently chatting with pclove. (:

2009-11-16T18:09:00.002+08:00

you think life for you has been uneasy ?
do you know how it feels now ? to be treated like trash ?
there's a reason why it happens.
all you have to do is find out where you went wrong and correct that mistake ?
you're not the only who is stuck in the house , are you ?
are you only thinking of yourself ?
do you see me going in and out of the house , cos im going out with friends ?
i dont think so right.
i know how much you've changed.
i can see how hard you're trying.
and i very much understand how you feel.
am i not your flesh and blood ?
i dont want to go against you for nothing.
i dont take control of anything nor anyone.
you dont know how much more fcuked up i am.
everybody's telling me things, while im sitting there thinking of what i can do. WHAT IS THERE I CAN DO ?
im trying to find a job but i cant cos mummy says i should not be the one working. cos she doesnt want me to drop on my studies because of work and becos i have another year to go.
you can say alot of things about me.
that im most loved by grandma and mummy.
but you think again, the slightest mistake i make, would take them a long time to forgive me. how bout you ?
they forgive and forget like it never happened.
they want the best from me, but i cant keep to their expectations.
all they want me to do is study study study like i have no life.
all you have to do right now, is get yourself a job.
and there you go, free as ever.
like you wanted.
ONE JOB that you can stick to for the mean time, is already your happy ever after.
and me ? what am i supposed to do right now ?
the only time that i'll go out for is to school.
FCUK IT OKAY ?

2009-11-16T17:40:00.002+08:00

heyhey !
yesterday was home from westmall around 845pm.
while heading to the lift of my house,
saw moon ki.
=.=
he said he shifted house. and live on the 12th floor ?
kay , i dont know and dont care if its true.

today had netball training from 12-3pm .
hell, it was tiring.
but 3 hours of training is not bad.
if can , extend till 4 hours.
haha.
(:
there'll be training on thurs 12-3pm also.
hmm.
had an almost-might-get-injured fall.
haha.
was running to get the ball , then tripped on dee's leg.
aft that , the impact was so freaking cool, i was running sideways trying to get my balance and i came to a stop right before i could hit the pole.
hahah .
best. ended up squatting down and then lay down and laugh.
funny i tell you.
dee was panicky, scared i sprain my ankle.
cos when i tripped on her leg, my ankle was twisted.
its okay , i survived ;D
but then , should have seen everyone's expressions.
super funny. (:

supposed to meet mdm hamidah today,
but then she got off work early .
and wanted to meet her tmw,
but then since i have training on thurs,
i'll just meet her on thurs morning before training.
(:

im super tired right now.
haiyyyaaaaaaaa .
i dont want sleep uhs.
but then i dont want to be awake either.
wat the heeellllllll.

2009-11-15T13:04:00.002+08:00

headed to orchard yest night.
daddy was working so bus-ed there.
hmm.
walk2, take pics.
reached home around 11pm.
i was so freaking bored during the whole trip ,
i was texting with pclove. :D

will be going westmall soon later.
then will be walking2 around the neighbourhood in the aftnn.
i miss pclove so muchhhhh .
hahaha .
kay shhhh .

there's training tomorrow from 12-3pm.
DEE ! dont frgt to brg my dress ! ;D

2009-11-14T16:54:00.004+08:00

ive not been feeling myself these days.
im really sorry to those i didnt tell.
and im really really sorry to those i had to hurt.

i was down yesterday.
texted pc about it .
we were talking bout things, made me more sad.
couldnt sleep well yest night.

and today, i cried.
called pc. he comforted me. yeah.
i guess, there were alot of people ive hurt so far.
MIANHAEYO.
really really really sorry.

i just couldnt tell him why i was crying.
i felt really really really sad and it hurt me so bad.
haiya.
there's just too many things going round.

hmm.
didnt get the job, but its okay.
):

The 11November2009 story (:

2009-11-12T11:21:00.002+08:00

haha .
yest had ss class.
it started at 8am .
met up with dee and ika.
reach school, ika went for her chemistry.
me and dee headed to canteen to meet nisa and the rest.
eat.eat.eat.
headed to slc ard 830am.
had ss lesson till 10am.
ika cabut her ss class so she followed me go see mdm hamidah.
ard 1130am ika went home.

helped mdm hamidah till 2pm like dat.
then headed home.
got a missed call from PC and dee.
called Dee back. told me to have my phone next to me.
so yeah, it was alr next to me ! ;D
aft put down phone with dee, PC call.
talk awhile, told him to just text cos pp8 low.
around 4plus.
he call again.
halfway through the call, pp8 flat.
hahahahahh. funny sia.

cepat2 go bank and top up.
sanggup i tell you . ;D
text.text.text.text.
at night, followed mummy and daddy go grocery shopping.
supposed to go for job interview today but mummy tak kasi cos its at paya lebar and kakak alr got a job.
fish lah.

slept around 11plus.
and its the end of a beautiful day.
(:
but today, my handphone is not with me.
kakak brought it to work.
and she finishes work at 9pm !
FCUKKKKKKK. boring seyh like dat.
haiya.

2009-11-10T16:29:00.002+08:00

had chemistry class again today.
went to school with dee.
class ended at 930am.
met rusy , went to canteen.
wait dee they all finish eating then went to ISH.
sat at the table under ISH.
see soccer boys (:
went fro netball at 1030am.

did warm up and played street netball.
besttttttt.
1130am, finish netball.
go yohub with rusy.
got nisa, ila, dee and rosa.
sit2, talk2 until 1245.
went out of school together with them.

reached home,
eat, mandi.
otp with PC awhile.
hmm.

now im freaking boredd.
to girlfs,
when i go KL, im using my msian number tauu.
tmw i give you all the number. (:

2009-11-09T20:54:00.003+08:00

today,
had chemistry class.
met up with dee and go school together.
sat in canteen awhile cos dee wanted to eat.
was abit late for chem class.
but we didnt care anyway.

class ended abit late.
saw cg azzizah.
asked her bout the kem obor thingy.
she said it will be confirmed if we gg by 16nov.
me and dee not sure if we going not.
busy.

went out from school with dee.
reached home, eat and chill2 at home.
the couple came back from westmall.
kelvin blanja KFC .
thanks loads.
hmm.

was baking brownies cos got people order.
then just now went out with nadd,kelvin and my two younger siblings.
walk2 around the neighbourhood.
&girlfs,
i'll be off to KL this weekend.
hais.

2009-11-08T19:53:00.002+08:00

woke up early.
was busy in the morning.
then was watching tv and texting at noon.
went down to warm up the car engine again.
hmm.
wanted to testing2 drive the car. but scared crash into the car in front.
so tak jadi.

slept at 3plus just now and woke up ard 430pm.
tired like hell.
there's class tomorrow.
and that sucks.
haiya.

i want a late night tonight.
i need to think things through.
hmm.

2009-11-07T08:06:00.002+08:00

morning people !
;D
im gonna blog bout yesterday night.
aft i used the comp, watched tv with naf and nad.
and we had sibling talk.
ard midnight, my phone vibrate. (:
uncle called and asked to meet him at 7-11.
ape lagi ? all 3 of us went down uh.
dah bored kat umah.

reached 7-11, then he asked us to buy anything we want.
i was just standing all over the place, texting.
uncle keep bugging me to get things.
haha. i told him i dont want anything.
i end up buying ice cream je. (:
pasal dah enjoy text org , then he kacau.
LOL.
nad's bf joined us soon after.
hmm.
then walked home slowly.

aft reached home, eat ice cream and drink coke.
and watched tv while texting pc. nad's bf stayed in the house until 2am.
then i felt like vomitting. ):
ate ice cream at wrong time uh.
hmm.

watched tv until 2plus.
tros masok bilik, called pc.
talk talk talk talk talk talk talk talk talk talk .
then my stupid battery flat.
haiya.
by that time it was alr, 3plus gg to 4am.
pc called back bt then i reject.
haha. texted pc and tell him that i'll call back later.
i went out of the room step mcm ngantok,
look at my mother's face and wait until she go work.
haha.
aft that, go inside room again. check hp, pc text say he wanna sleep.
so okay, i ended up sleeping at 430am.
and woke up at 730am just now.
:(
still tired yknw, but then cant sleep.
pfffft.

2009-11-06T22:28:00.002+08:00

woke up at 7plus.
bathe, watched tv, waited for ika to text.
845am, ika text, went out the house.
met ika under my block and off to school.
had geog class from 10am-1130am.
then met mdm hamidah during break.
talked to her about stuffs.
aft that, went canteen, met dee and nisa.
talked2 bout stuffs with them.

went to geog class again at 1pm.
ended ard 230pm.
sat in school with nisa and syahidah.
waited for the OBS peeps to reach skul.
ard 3pm, they reached, rushed to foyer, hugged qilah and syimah.
;D
told aqilah bout stuffs.
i got moody otw home.
haiya.

mum asked why i reached home late.
jawab je lah kannnn.
tak marah anyways.
at home, nad ajak play cards with her boyfy and nafiah.
i played one game thinking it will release some of that stress.
but the moody-ness took over.
gave up aft that, and went to bathe.
was talking to mum aft that.

i knw that my parents & grandparents are stressed out yknw.
cos, they usually tell me whats going on in the house that only the adults know. so yeah, i feel their pain. hmm.
i'll just be a listening ear to them. esp to mummy.
i love her alot. i hate it when she gets moody and stress cos it makes me feel the same way...

went to the shop to buy some stuffs aft that.
i tried making mummy laugh, though i know, she's only laughing to make me happy. haiya.
kay2, so watched this sweet korean show that me and mummy almost cry. awww.

whatever, im still down anyway.
i dont whats up with me now.
hmm.